In October of 2012, I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder after being hospitalized for having a manic depressive episode in my dorm room. I went back to my dorm after a night of drinking and felt as though I had lost control of my emotions.
For almost two years before my manic episode, I felt as though I could not stay balanced. I would get extreme highs during the day, and at night I would sink to lows where I did not want to leave my room. During those two years, I felt as though my actions would be unpredictable and like I was always on edge and I could snap at any moment. In April 2012, I decided to take a leave of absence from school because my depression and bipolar had got the best of me. I refused medication until I was forced to take it after my hospitalization in October and the only way I would be allowed to be back on campus.
I managed to finish my senior year at Oneonta in May 2013 and graduated. I owe it all to asking for help from friends, family, doctors, and taking my medication. I currently see a psychologist once a week, a psychiatrist, and I take three medications daily to cope with bipolar. The advice that I could give people who are diagnosed with bipolar and depression is not to be afraid to ask for help and take medication if you need to. I have good and bad days but I try to stay positive every day. I hope this message could help someone out who is struggling with depression or bipolar.
by John Darrin